103. Jessie Cave - It's hard not to be Emma Watson

Sofie talks to doodler, actor and comedian Jessie Cave about taking up drawing as a way to get back at a guy, strength in vulnerability, severe unrequited love stories, putting yourself out there, being awkward, running commentaries during sexual situations, going through a breakup forever, the paranoid gene, trust issues, the benefits of low expectations, being a child athlete, getting used to not doing things by yourself, parenthood, ambition, hope, being ghosted by Emma Watson and why kids can be dicks at 4.

102. Michelle De Swarte - The Spice Girls lied to us

Sofie talks to New York-based standup comedian and Vice reporter Michelle De Swarte about pyjama modelling, moving to LA and becoming a Buddhist, growing up in a women's refuge, swallowing emotions and learning to be upset, constant reinvention, making yourself a martyr, trying not to weird out your therapist, emotional alleyways, school troubles, dysfunctional relationships, physical appearance, social media, a 1am timeslot at the Edinburgh Fringe, why the Spice Girls lied to us and doing a bit of chanting.

Trigger Warning: alcohol and drug abuse, domestic violence, panic attacks, bi-polar disorder, Schizophrenia

101. Travis Alabanza - Everyone's trans

Sofie talks to artist Travis Alabanza about being black and trans and gender-non-conforming, making up for lost time fashion-wise, how the outside world tells you how to be, pronouns and fitting into boxes, growing up poor, an abusive relationship with the internet, how minority artists are politicised as 'activists’, who deserves vulnerability, oppression making the oppressed two-dimensional, the urge to be desired, perfection, trans people editing themselves in public and the bonding power of honesty.

Trigger Warning: Transphobia

100th Episode Bonus - Alison Bechdel & Sofie Hagen

Sofie talks to cartoonist, creator of ‘The Bechdel Test’ and author of Fun Home Alison Bechdel about writing an auto-biographical book that turned into a play, letting other people take creative control, dealing with her father's suicide, being gay, the different concerns that come with getting older, being followed by a coming-of-age story when definitely of age, finding a young queer audience, The Bechdel Test in a changing cultural stew, identity, family secrets, how drawing memories can change the way you remember them and a meditation on mortality.

Trigger Warning: Suicide

100. Susan Calman - I have no plans to do stand-up again

Sofie talks to returning guest Susan Calman about over-sharing, some devastating cabbage news, Strictly Come Dancing, femininity and wearing dresses, going all in and not worrying about what people think, body confidence, replying to trolls, quitting standup because of Hannah Gadsby, tension and release in comedy, going from corporate lawyer to comedian, vulnerability, not being frightened of not knowing who you are, the paparazzi, model trains, Love Island and why we should all be telling people to fuck off more.

Trigger Warning: Fat hate, Suicide, Depression

99. Danny Wallace - I've nailed up every gap in my house

Sofie talks to writer and presenter Danny Wallace about how the Argos stockroom really works, how to avoid confrontation when buying hot dogs, why our brains can't come up with a witty comeback in the moment, a rudeness vaccine, the 'stretch and stroll', trying to write for Hallmark, getting on Richard Whiteley's bad side, a moment in time with Ronnie Barker, starting countries and cults, why people keep stealing his image, Jesusween and weird Belgian chat shows.

98. The Slumflower (aka. Chidera Eggerue) - LIVE - Why are men?

Sofie talks to award-winning blogger, creator of #SaggyBoobsMatter and author of What a Time to be Alone Chidera Eggerue (a.k.a. The Slumflower) about beauty standards, misogyny, heatwave toplessness, individuality in the UK, being okay with making mistakes, sharing a planet with men, policing women for speaking out, raging feminism, reparations in relationships, making solitude cool, jazz hands, fake feminists and a trophy cabinet of insecurities.

97. BodyPosiPanda - LIVE - Maybe my body knew better than Slimming World

Sofie talks to author and body positivity advocate Megan Crabbe, a.k.a. Bodyposipanda about feminism,  Facebook's free food, privilege, re-routing the media's spotlight, the 'perfect storm' of dieting and Anorexia, finding your people, the unreality of the inner ‘thinnie’ and 'when I'm thin' fantasies , Intersectionality, pasta bakes, learning to be angry, swimming viciously and The Health Question.

Trigger warning: Eating disorders, Anorexia

96. Dulcé Sloan - It's too many humans

Sofie talks to American comic Dulcé Sloan about being a correspondent on The Daily Show, growing up in Atlanta, ‘cuffing season’, low expectations, hating New York, the art of shade, frankensteining dudes together, 'oh, shit' moments, working her way back into an office, the word 'skit', yelling at fat-shamers, wanting the stage presence of Margaret Cho, comedy and money, going into a audition and seeing 20 versions of herself and a Schindler's List blooper reel.

95. DeAnne Smith - Feminism and Nazis are very different things

Sofie talks to Toronto-based comedian DeAnne Smith about their semi-neglected podcast Questionable at Best, getting too in your head about things, self-sabotage, the scrappy underdog, why straight guys need to do better, feminism and Nazis, thriving in tension, getting overwhelmed in social situations, why the US feels like a dysfunctional family, the Canadian comedy scene, staying authentic to yourself and thinking you’ve invented the concept of being gay.

Trigger warnings: Depression, Anxiety, Alcoholism

94. Lisa Skye - Sparklepuppy Muppet Dominatrix

Sofie talks to “well-tolerated” comedian, activist, femme-Daddy and Sparklepuppy Muppet Dominatrix Lisa Skye about what exactly all that means, “weird sex stuff”, the inspiration that is Claudia Kishi, inhaling consensual suffering, getting asthma from activism, “edgy” comedy and religion, kinks, polyamory, audience participation traffic lights, hecklers controlling the room, working at a phone dating agency, how bugs bunny got her into BDSM, a need of excess and pleasure, why the Finns love Shibari bondage, inclusivity and radical kindness, bullying, kink clubs and being “too much”.

Trigger warnings: Sexual harrassment

93. Zainab Johnson - It was a nuisance to be different

Sofie talks to comedian, actor and writer Zainab Johnson about appreciating the ‘yes’es, fate, being ‘pretty’ on stage, the importance or lack thereof of credits, confidence, being one of 13 children, investigating faith as a practising Muslim, the need to belong, the beauty and power of belief, The Book of Eli and Malcolm X.

Trigger warnings: Islamophobia

92. Jonny Donahoe - LIVE - Straight culture is shit

Sofie talks to comedian Jonny Donahoe about being one half of Jonny and the Baptists, lineage, winning people over, Mens Rights Activists, cricket, impending fatherhood and learning to be a Dad, rich-person politics, Ricky Gervais, Harry Potter, why advertising should be banned, why Sofie was miscast in Jonny's play Every Brilliant Thing, 'nice guys', the rhythm method and not wanting to be married.

Trigger warnings: Eating Disorders, Suicide

91. Celia Pacquola - Massive father issues, obviously

Sofie and Melbourne-based comedian, actor and writer Celia Pacquola talk about labels, the #metoo movement, outing shitty comedians, the fear of stereotyping, skewed perceptions, pandering, projection and hate, putting whammies in your shows, obligation and people-pleasing, rooting your self-worth in work, escape plans, catastrophising, committing fraud by accident and the worst fate for a puzzle.

90. Kobi Jae - I’m all for fat visibility

Sofie and Melbourne-based fat activist, personal style fashion blogger and web developer Kobi Jae talk about the deeper meaning behind swapping clothes, downplaying fatness, the word 'plus-size', the co-opting of body positivity, penny-drop moments, dashed Musical Theatre dreams, Amanda Palmer and flying in the face of what's expected, ‘selfie’ culture, stomach tattoos, giving yourself room to be human and outliving your fears.

Trigger warning: Depression, childhood sexual abuse

89. Geraldine Hickey - Have you ever been punched?

Sofie and Melbourne-based comedian Geraldine Hickey talk about being content, pita bread and banana sandwiches, running your own race, women playing Aussie Rules, Nauru and refugees, spending a week in a psychiatric unit, how coming out stepped up her comedy and identifying triggers in mental health.

88. Sophie Duker - I was very into peeing on rich people's houses

Sofie and London-based comedian and writer Sophie Duker talk about tasting drinks from shoes, living with witches, starting fires, finding out your Dad is having an affair, polyamory, doomed relationships, the old stalwarts of shame and guilt and being ‘abducted’ and sent to Ghana.

87. Stacy Bias - I was queer and in the closet as well

Sofie and American fat activist and animator Stacy Bias talk about becoming more British, taking up space, Flying While Fat, imposter syndrome, compassion, empaths and apaths, being okay with being a victim, being religious and pro-life in her youth, the Nazarene Church community, seeing demons, performative anger, appropriation of righteousness, easy doorways to scary topics and how to grieve a sociopath.

Trigger warning: Emotional abuse, grief

86. Kate Willett - Solitude is great

Sofie and American stand-up comedian Kate Willett talk about the expectation of happiness, depression and anxiety, becoming self-compassionate, meditation, using the road to avoid putting down roots, comedy and connection, love and sex, the Tinder sprint, a possible future political run and the Trumpiness of Trump.

Trigger warning: Depression and anxiety

85. Trevor Dion Nicholas - Don't get me started on nude pooping

Sofie and West End Performer Trevor Dion Nicholas talk about moving to London and opening a brand new production of Aladdin, crying over chicken, the expectation to be 'strong', finding your niche, the hungry ego, performing other people's work vs. creating your own, musical snobbery and calling bullshit in the entertainment industry.

Artwork by Linda Brinkhaus

Jingle by Bailey Lenart

Produced by Sarah Garvey

A huge thanks to Phoenix Artist Club in London for letting me record my podcast and do my shows with them. Special thanks to Peter Dunbar.